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forever love灯火阑珊处 9月4日 阴影 开着车，听着枫，一幕幕在悉尼与她的画面在脑海中出现，不知不觉眼眶就湿润了，有些东西就像在昨天发生。 自己也不相信为什么会这么绝情，很伤心也很担心， 既然结束了，为何自己还要在内心挣扎， 有些东西是回不去了，对她曾经是多么的用心，一次又一次的问自己为什么会喜欢上一个特别的她，才慢慢体会到，有些东西就算不用特别的修饰，也能闪亮着的。希望你能够快乐的活下去，想要哄你开心，也想要再一起出去旅游，但已经是过去了。对不起。 4月23日 亲爱的 Jade 心里总是藏着很多的话，不是刻意地去隐藏那一个自己，是习惯了。 也许只有你才能看见那个忧郁的我，因为你是我一直最信任的那一位，谢谢你的包容，你的温柔，每次心里很难过的时候，你都是逗我开心，听我发牢骚。但当在你最需要我的时候，我却总不在你身边。 你抱怨的时候，我却去责怪你。 亲爱的，对不起。 我每次想到你流眼泪的画面，我现在都会在默默地抽泣，亲爱的，对不起。 亲爱的，开心点，好吗？ 有一种爱，是你想奋力去爱，却显得自己多么渺小。 亲爱的，我还会继续写的。 三年来的回忆。 亲爱的Jade。 亲爱的，其实我很想保护你，每时每刻都在担心你， 怕你不在我身边的时候受伤而显得不知所措。 亲爱的，你陪我走过了一段让我感觉到目前人生最幸福的一段，在面对你的时候，你总是问我，你为什么总是这么惨酷,把我伤得那么重。。。亲爱的，对不起。 我很爱你，可是我的方式错了。我想再次去爱你，可是也许来不及了。 我希望以后未来有一天， 彼此会有一段更美好的开始。 还会再写。 3月26日 年底再看时，会是怎样。呵呵 感觉好像在布里斯班的生活接近尾声， 年底就毕业了，有一种莫名其妙的伤感， 以前我总是期望能早些毕业，走出社会，觉得朋友也只是一时的相聚，始终有一天会分别，所以也不会因为这个而伤心。 回想刚总高中的毕业时候， 带着那种期盼-准备接受不同的挑战，希望能去多一些地方， 接触更多不同的人， 也许能找到和自己有默契的真心朋友。我很欣慰身边有这么好的朋友们，我开始不舍得你们了，虽然还有一年， 但之后我们就要各奔东西了， 对某一个特别的人， 想要说声对不起， 在这两年多的时间里，我们互相鼓励， 也经历多甜酸苦辣，虽然看似很简单，但事实都是我所追求的生活。 正是这样，它们都成了我宝贵的回忆， 我会永远把它隐藏在我心里最深处的， 希望以后在某一天能够再次遇见你叙旧。 朋友，感谢你们， 我一直以为自己是一个不会因为和身边的人分别而感到伤感的，但我开始有那种隐隐约约的感觉，以前老师曾经说过大学是人生最快乐的时光，我也渐渐能够感受到， 即时有烦恼，也只是跟学科还有一些鸡毛蒜皮的小事， 每一次回国看到中国的变化，我都是感到激情澎湃， 想要回国去考验自己， 很多东西还是个未知数。 一年后的某天， 期待我真能回去，我希望能再见到朋友，去北京上海看看她们的繁华，有机会一定要去欧洲旅游－法国看看传说中的埃佛尔铁塔  大家要加油！让身边的人为你感到开心自豪！  谢谢 Junco 3月21日 haha, so funnyMy neighbours including his girl, and I obviously were in the elevator,
I started the conversation by saying: hey, havent seen you for a long time, how are you doing?"
"good, just got back from uni, so tired, ok, this is my gf.....that's Junco" after he introduced his gf,
cos it was thursday night usually the australian go clubbing or hang out with (guys or chicks).
so i asked: hey, are you going out tonite? dont ask me back, cos i am freakin tired need to get some sleep"
they were shaking their heads and the boy replied: are you sure, Junco, naughty, naughty, there are always so many special noises(omg, how many people are you talking about) out of your home, and i can hear them clearly outside your door(he actually implied something in relation to women;s orgasm, you know what i mean)
i was like: no way, i live by myself."
soon after that, his gf cou;d stop laughing at him, meanwhile, he didn;t know how to response, and it was totally silent for a few seconds except his gf;s laugh.
"oh, well, but you can still bring girls home"
"............" i didn;t say anything back but just smiling.
regards
Junco ai, horrible experienceThe terrible experience really stroke my mind, seriously, I hope that’s not going to happen again, otherwise I will fu**ing kick *** D***, it is true, might sound really gay. Ok, I was enjoying my summer break in (shenzhen) China. One day I was on my way to visit one of my best frds, when I was waiting at the platform to catch the subway. There was a guy about 40s something and 5 feet tall standing left besides me, I didn't even notice the guy until I sense that somebody was looking at me for over a period, then I threw a quick glance at him, and thought "possibly it is just a coincident that he is watching something, and I am blocking his view.", So I decided to walk deliberately to his left-hand side (remember I was originally on his right-hand side), and again threw another quick glance at him. "Shit, he is really staring at me". After like 5 mins, the subway arrived and subsequently we entered into the subway, I was reclining the glass wall while he sitting but we were absolutely facing towards each other.
After like another 3mins, the subway was in motion. " damn, what the hell, he is using his mobile and photographing me", simultaneously I was assuming like "oh, well, he might be some sort of detectives who discover people having the potential to be an idol." f***, honestly, apparently I was not an idol but an idiot, I was aware that he was interested at me, I also knew that he was taking pictures of me, but I was pretending I knew nothing and acting like a usual person looking at somewhere else as to avoid his photo shot at my face. Finally, as I reached my destination, I quickly got off the subway "yeah, perhaps I’ve got the potential to be an idol, I am good looking or something similar", you can’t even imagine how it feels like-ok, happy smile. P.S. the guy got off the subway as well.
Alright, I hurried to the escalator, and damn saw the guy standing right behind me. The most disgusting moment was about to come, as we were on our half way to the ground floor. I suddenly felt that someone’s hand like intentionally but slightly chopped right in the middle of my hip(my asshole) but then pulled back immediately, holy crab, I was like "omg, you got to be kidding me" so I turned back, the guy was acting like he didn’t do anything(innocent) but looking at nowhere. You know, cos that was my first time, i was quite shocked at that moment, I couldn’t do anything but just step upward. Eventually, I ran away and just wanted to make my way out of this situation as soon as possible.
How stupid I am, what the hell were i thinking at that moment, i am not sure if he is an idol detective, the only thing certain is that he is a gay. and please i never change my sex-orientation, i like ladies. if that thing happens again, i swear I will kick his fuc**ing ass, and smash on his f***in face. Please, don’t let that happen again!
 Regards
Junco
3月5日 Life is simple, make a choiceI had a car accident last week which made me extremely stressed and embarous, That mightbe because I spelt only 6 hours per day for like a week and spent most of my time on searching and inspecting houses in the morning and then cleaning and packing up stuffs during afternoon, , yep, dont worry! Currently, I still got another four weeks to end my lease in charlotte tower.
I feel so lonely at night, I think to myself, now there mightbe no one i can depend on or i should be depending on. however, I am just curious and flustrates, I have been looking for the ture personality of myself "who the hell is me" since last year. I admit that I have changed a lot since that event happend(three months ago). I need a complete new, challenge life, this is exactly what i should to aiming for?
What's life, imagine if I could successfully reach my goals in around 30s then continue with my new adventure in China ( probably after obtaining enough experiences and qualifications from overseas, be able to assist my father, or to be his partner), hold on, stop dreaming, need to put more efforts to improve yourself fitst. certainly, whatever I say seems to be ridiculous at this moment. I will concentrate on what i suppose to do, and try my best.
There is a sentence from "which" movie I forget, or I just created it, it really inspire me all the time, says -" life is simple, make a choice" , that;s right, life is simple, and take it easy, don;t let your emotion or other people control you, cos you are the only one who is going to be responsible for whatever you are going to do. Just calm down, think carefully from the start til the consequence before making decision and judgements. keep your confience all the way throught the end, and finally no matter the result turns out to be, trust yourself, at least, you will learn a lesson, it could be better if you encounter the problems now than later when you are already at work.
"Life Is Simple, Make A Choice"
Best regards
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